simply emotional

i love you.

AMERICA'S BEST DANCE CREW

Yeaa!! Season 5 is finally here! I just saw the episode for the east coast crews and i really dont know what to think. haha Seriously, i have no idea where these crews popped up from. If you're familiar with the previous seasons, there is a team called Seven from boston, that has members whom have already competed. They were former members of Status Quo, who almost won a season. They came in second, but sadly this season they got kicked off on the first episode! I really wanted two crews from Massachusetts to compete. oh well
OHH Waitt wait! Isn't the show called AMERICA'S best dance crew and there's a group from Canada that's competing. I'm sure we could have found another crew from the east coast to compete and actually beat the west coast. Do they let people from other countries participate in American idol? I feel like it's just unfair. And if we really couldn't find another amazing crew, the judges could have just called me. I promise i'll give you a show that you won't forget. :]
i don't hate you canada, i just got confuzzled because i thought the show was called America's best dance crew.

p.s.
im absolutely in love with this show
k thanks.

oh my sweet baby jesus

who knew how things are going to turn out.

I never thought my life would be like how it is today. I felt so much stronger before, and like everything was so much clearer before. What happen to this "before?" I used to be able to really make people feel better and give some great advice! I used to know what to do all the time! Now? I really don't know what to say, or what to do, except to sit there and try to comprehend how they feel. Just to say "I understand." But that really doesn't help sh*t out, does it? Yea, you don't feel lonely anymore because I'm sitting there, but seriously wtf do you do now?! I've never felt so helpless.

i hate not being able to cheer my loved ones up.

If tonight is my last by Laura Izibor

If an angel came down to me
ask what i would do differently
I would say nothing you see
I love someone truly

And If i do not see tomorrow
You know it's gonna be alright
'cause I got my Baby
right by my side

And if the rain ain't falling
And the sun ain't shining
It makes no difference to me
I'm right where I wanna be

And I tonight is my last,
What I gotta do,
And If tonight is my last
I wanna spend it with you

And If the sky's for us down
It's gonna be alright
'cause I got you here tonight

If I had to give all that I own
It returned for the love that's grown.
I will give it gladly
Cause nothing else compares
To the moments that we shared

And if the rain ain't falling
And the sun ain't shining
It makes no difference to me
I'm right where I wanna be

And I tonight is my last,
What I gotta do,
And If tonight is my last
I wanna spend it with you

Merry Christmas??

Merry effing Christmas everybody!


I'm broke from all the gifts that I bought for other people to try to show them how much I care for them. Aggravated from the headaches like not knowing what someone would really like or want, and the many trips to the over crowded malls. Not to mention my failed attempt at making everybody a cute phone charm. Which we forgot to put the hooks on and cracked while baking in the oven. I thought it would be nice to make something small for everybody. That didn't work out...
ANYWAYS, lol put that all aside I got to get to know my sister better recently, through all of the holiday madness. I have this weird feeling, I don't know what it's called. I'm happy and I feel more complete? I don't know how to explain it. Even though I live with her I never really KNEW her. I just lived with her? No questions asked really. haha Isn't that weird? Maybe I'll end up being best friends with her? It's hard for me to see that right now but usually crazy & weirder things happen to me. And I always just go with it. haha so why not?
My Original plans for Christmas was to go up to new york, and see the other side of the family. BUT I did that last year so i decided to keep my butt here and spend more time with my friends. I cherish every moment. I think I'm one of the few who really does see that time is really precious. I always try to make the best of every situation. And so should you! You emo little buttmuches. Yea, I said it.
I have a feeling this is going to be another amazing Christmas. I have amazing friends and family. What more could I ask for?

haha
seriously, Merry Christmas!
Try not to stress out.

Wishful Thinking.

Another year is passing by so quickly! I don't know why the new years always makes me feel a little bit depressed, just thinking about time. Where it all went, what it is. They say once you turn 21 the years go by slower. I really don't want to see what happens when I hit the whole mid life crisis situation!! Then I think about what I can do to improve, even if it only lasts for a couple of months and then we go right back to our old habits. haha I know I hate when everything gets spoiled, but that's just my wishful thinking.
Oh, and for some reason I always feel like I get bad luck around the new years. I always end up being single, and kissing one of my friends for that midnight kiss. haha Of course I don't mind spending my precious time with my friends, but I would like to share a kiss with the man of my dreams. I always wanted that moment where there's dramatic music in the background, like something out of a movie. I know it sounds stupid, I'm not a hopeless romantic and I don't believe in those fairytale endings anymore! How can I after having my heart stomped on so many times? I guess I'm just a dreamer.
Well here's a little list of things I want to improve on. I really hope that this year can finally be the year for me.

1. Quit smoking. seriousllyy
2. Lose some Weight
3. Improve my relationships with my family/spend more time with them.
4. Try to be more organized
5. Try not to shop so much! I just can't help it!
6. Try caring about myself more before others. I feel like I can be such a pushover! I'm just a marshmellow